day 3 as botak..
went for dental appt today..say i got 1 teeth is at the begining stage of decay and i need to floss more often and cut down on sweet drinks..fine with it..

then..went to a briefing as i have to work for some company on 31st..but apparently, when the brand manager saw me botak..he called my agency man and then i was told that the event was cancelled..and that they will give me only $10 for making the trouble to come down for interview and briefing.. ..the agency guy keep telling me that it is not about me..but i can sense and feel it..or maybe i might be over conscious as i am botak..i dunno...all i know is that..today i actually feel that stigmatisism..that unwanted..feeling..today i can empatise with those cancer patients..though it is jus a small thing..

ANYHOW..I HAVE NOT REGRETTED THAT I HAVE CHOOSE TO SHAVE..AS THROUGH THIS..I CAN FEEL HOW THEY FEEL..I AM NOT DOIN MY PART FOR THESE PEOPLE, INSTEAD, I FEEL THAT THEY ARE HELPING ME. I WIL LEARN TO BECOME STRONGER, I WILL LEARN TO BECOME MORE UNDERSTANDING FROM THIS.

AND I WANNA CHANGE THE MENTALITY OF SINGAPOREANS' CONSERVATIVE THINKING AND STIGMATISISM!



day 2 as botak..

noting much today..wore at wig at work..
some collegues at work say i should not have wore that wig, but afterall, singapore is still a conservative society..and we need to have some professional look...so i decide to keep my wig on..



went for hair for hope this afternoon..shaved my head bald..just before shaving..suddenly felt like crying..hmm..but i dun really know the reason y..then my turn came and all of a sudden, i dun feel anything..i was quite lucky so to speak, my hairdresser is alvin, an ite guy, he was concentrating real hard when shaving my head..till when the mc call him..he also dunno..haha..then after i had my hair shaved off..i suddenly feel very happy..i dunno y..really..n..though he keeps on saying NO to me wanting to do this, but yet he still came with me to vivo and help me take pic..he ask me..isit that he luv me too much tat even when he violently object to wad i'm doin, he still come and support me? i dunno..

after tat, went back home to wash up and get redy for jay zhou concert..
at first his singing sucks..then after all got high, it was so touching and nice..OMG..then while we were there, at the indoor stadium, and walking at kallang leisure..he told me"do you know u very AA?" (AA=attract attention)..hmm..ok..but to me, i felt ok with it..if i wanna shave my head, i have to be prepared to be stared by ppl..anyway, i do not have any mirror with me all the time..sometimes, i still forget that i have shaven bald till i looked into the mirror..

anyhow..

I AM LUVIN MY BOTAK HEAD!