he sae he wan come fetch me after work today..but..he din even set alarm clock to wake himself up..HELLO..i finish work at 3.15pm! not 7 am..! yet you still can't get up and come in time and sae that i can call you to wake u up..y am i making a big fuss about it? HELLO! i am busy at work..how to call u n wake u up..u tink i free arh..and is you sae wanna fetch me de mah..so at least you shd have set alarm to wake urself up! and nt make me wait for you always! then..u cum my hse nv tell me properly..juz left some hints here n there..how was i suppose to know? i always hope tat u will come and find me at my place after a fight..but i am always disappointed..=x..how was i suppose to know tat u r there today? n u juz hang up my phone and switch your phone off..bastard idiot..i hate u! i din do anything wrong! fuck..y should i be treated this way..shit you..

i really feel like cutting myself..but i know i will be stupid if i do it..so i decide to go out for some fresh air..it was raining heavily..like my heart..went to westcoast and sat there..in front of the open sea..gether my thoughts and feelings..and came back n shower..

then u called and ask me to open the door..

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then u left again to your aunt hse..cozz i dun wanna go with my puffy eyes..

n u came back with my dinner..bomb prata..

then we played mahjong with sis n bf..

not a memorable and enjoyable Christmas at all!

so now..i'm a vegetarian!

and i can't wait for Christmas!

and i haven got him any pressie yet!

but i know..i'm luvin him!

but they sae..7 year sure break up...

so..lets see...

love!

aniwae

23/12/09

went for my dental appt today..

reach until there..then realised that i dun have wallet and the day before i had accidentaly left my hp with him..so tat means that i got nothing! no wallet no $$..no hp..DIE!

then i borrowed the phone frm the indian receptionist..she so bua song..then i went down to the 1st floor to borrow phone, but the reception there say i can't borrow the phone..so she dig out 2 10cent coin and give me..THANK YOU VERY MUCH! then i call sis for help..thanks!

aya..then he fetch me to SGH..then bike kana wheel clamp..$107 to unclamp it.!!! .wth..summore other bike no clamp only warning letter..y ours clamp? shit you man! WILSON PARKING! I CONDEMN YOUR MANAGEMENT! ANGRY!!!

y can't i juz open up to them?

wad is sooo wrong with me?

i juz wanna lead my life..i wanna get my own house and my dog and lead my life!

i wanna have lotsa freedom..not like now..always gotta report whether coming back or not..where am i goin and stuff..i am big enuff..i can take care of myself. but then again..i know they are worried!

my conclusion is...

I DO NOT WANT ANY CHILDREN OF MY OWN IN FUTURE! coz i wouldn't know how to control them..when to let them go..how much freedom to give..how to educate them..

my solution to this prob is:

let me rear a doggy! so that i will be obliged to come back n take care of it..actually..i wouldn't say obliged la..i would wanna come back n see my doggy coz i will miss it..=x..but this stupid strict family of mine will never allow me to have one..she always sae..wait till i get my own home..this is her HOUSE!

I totally agree.. this is HER HOUSE! i gotta wait till i'm older and get married to get my OWN HOME!