watching many ppl get married..sometimes really make me feel very envious..
alot of ppl ask me..when am i getting married..all i could sae is..not anytime soon..=x..
basically..i am a practical person..u gt no $..no need to tink of marriage..tat is top of my list..but then again..i dun marry becoz tat person is loaded or wad..juz tat..at least the base muz be well supported mah..otherwise..very easily it will collapse mah..

i'm with him for 6 plus..coming to 7 years this x'mas..yes..i totally agree tat it is time to talk bout marriage at this stage le..but..gt no $$$..=x..he still studying..haven complete his NS..how liddit..=x..n sumtimes..somethings worries me..i very scared tat our interest clashes and we will divorce if we get married..=x..

i like to travel and see things..he thinks that itz a waste of money..he will spend on luxury things like he will rather get a nicer car or bike with tat extra cash..but..of coz..because i like to travel..n if he gt the cash..he will give in to me and accompany me go travel..but now he will..will he give in to me in future???

i tink of alot of things..which makes me have alot of fears..n thus..i tink tat i will not lead my life to the fullest..i fear tat i am unable to handle and teach my children well in future..thus i have decided not to have children..another reason y i dun wan to have kids is coz..i gt this fear that wad if i groom my kid to a certain age already and he/she die before me? i cannot take tat..=x..i told u i tink alot le..=x..mayb sometimes i should juz stop tinking n juz do..to lead life to the fullest..and to experience every single little tings????


sometimes i really love him to the max n wanna marry him right away..sometimes i tink the otherwise when we meet with disagreements..=x..i dunno..i still gt a long way to go..so..i no need to tink so much now!

thus..

I AM GOING TO SLEEP NOW! TMR GOTTA WAKE UP EARLY TO WORK LEH!



plan of today - go ion orchard then he go work.


Yesterday nite..i went to turf city to watch soccer..man u vs arsernal..wah..at the very last min..arsernal scored! we were damm happy..coz we win $$$ BUT! it was off side..meaning foul..so tat goal was not counted! wah..wet blanket..! anihow..we won $10 overall..haha..den go mac eat n back zzz..
today i woke up at 11plus..excited to go out..but tat PIG still wanna zzz..so fine la..zzz till 12 plus..wake up..make some brunch..den..wahaha..very fun..coz his parents was not at home..he carried me on his shoulders..wah..i was damm high la..head can hit the top of the door sia..so scary..but very fun..veru high..i kept luffing..den very buai balance..haha..den he ran around the hse..like abit siao siao la..but was fun..den he put me down..den complain..back pain... ... ...|||... wad can i sae..i lose weight le lor..i now ONLY 41KG hor! not very heavy la hor..SO DUN COMPLAIN! wahahaha..BLEAH!

Aniwae..after tat..den we wash up n prepare to go out gai gai loh!
go ion..like not shopping leh..i walk abit..den he jio me go down to basement there coz he read magazine gt nice food there..|||..aniwae..went to eat a R burger..soso nia..i wouldn't sae itz v nice..i tink not tasty enuff..then we also eat the jap octopus ball ball..tat was was ok..not bad..den gt this tokyo crepe doll..there is this jap chef there..wah..i kana sot by him..haha..siao..i tink he quite charming..so end up..we bought a mix berry crepe frm him..i so paiseh..dun dare to talk to him..den i ask alfred to help me order..wahaha..the crepe was ok..berry combine with the icecream was nice coz itz sour n sweet..but the crepe isn't anitink special..not particularly fragrant or tasty leh..=x..but..chef handsome can liao la..wahahahha..BLEAH!

then..after ion went to wisma to check out my phone WIFI and eat at republic food..den slowly walk towards his work place which is behind PS there..

while we walk pass Ngee Ann city..there were ppl basking there..a group of filopinos was dancing there like a free pub or something there la..and a bangala was also seen dancing there la! wah..when did the streets of orchard become a little philipines?

talking about filipinos..kao..i'm sorry if i offend ppl here..but i am starting to dislike them! though i know there are good filipinos like athens, michelle, eunice, reah, analiza..frm my previous ward 58ID..but..the others are kinda fucked up..LAZY AND FLIRTY/DESPO MAIDS to fucking SSN(SENIOR STAFF NURSE). i'm sorry for being so rough in my language or being insensitive..but i got bullied..=x..story is liddit...


a few days ago...i was in observation ward..and there was this lodger who gt no bed in the hospital..so gotta stay in the observation ward..thus..i would need to call the doctor down to clerk the case and see the patient..normally..we will wait till 2 hours before calling the doctor to make sure no bed up there mah..so 2 hours means due at bout 2pm..which was after i pass the report..so..by right..i pass to the next shift people already..so itz her responsibility..but..we juz help aound mah..so i wanted to help the afternoon shift people call the dr down to clerk..so i called the respi ward to ask which Dr is suppose to clerk case today..then this filopino SSN came and ask me y i call the ward..she pointed out to the call list and ask me to call the consultant on call on the call list to come clerk the case..KAO..u tink i FIRST DAY WORKING? who would call a consultant to clerk a case? unless really can't get his subordinates den you'll climb up the ladder n call the consultant mah rite..aniwae..i told her again n sae.."but is clerking case only..y call the consultant?" she replied to me ask me to JUZ CALL TAT CONSULTANT..FUCK U LA.. U WANNA SARBO RITE!

nvm..itz ok..so i went else where to call the house officer to come and clerk the case..but since i was new in ANE..to be sure..i went to ask other senior if they would call the consultant as first line to clerk the case..all give me a shock face n tell me " NONO!!" luck i not stupid enuff to listen to you DAMM FILOPINO! YOU DUMB ASS!

another incident was the same filipino was asked by a DR to give this patient a pain injection and also a fleet enema..i heard myself tat the DR ask her to do the task..guess was she did? she hugged the case sheet for a 10 mins..den came to me..and juz tell me to give the pain injection..den fake it and sae..wait i HELP u check see anymore things DR order anot..n she gt the cheek to sae..OH! STILL GT ENEMA! FUCK la..you tink i stupid..deaf or wad..the dr already told u gt fleet le mah..y still wanna fake in front of me..n pass your shit job to me? it not like its your time to go home wad..then mayb u gt a reason to pass to me to do..please lo..it was only 2 plus..you lazy piece of shit..i HATE YOU!

another filopino..also..when gt tink to ask me to do..can tell me..other wise..when i need some thing..ask frm him..he like turn DEAF EAR liddit..damm irritating..he can ignor me TOTALLY! i talk to him like talk to wall liddit..

no wonder so many filopino flee out of their country to go to other country to work la..all the F ppl..bad attitude..bad ethics..bad mannered..steal ppl tings..etc..how to work harmoniously there?

i'm sorry..i am not saeing all filopinos are bad..juz tat u gt some black sheeps..who had pissed me off and i juz need to vent out!



quarrel with him ytd..bout many stuff..but anyway..was resolved le..and he agreed to get me a CBR 400..class 2a bike..YEAH!!!! tat means i would not have to sell my bike le!!! YESH! but i gota be a bastard and tell my tat buyer sae i not selling le..haiz..=z..but..at least..i am happy tat i no need to part with my beloved bikey! yesh! love me bike!

anyway..i hate 1 stupid filopino SSN at DEM..YOU IDIOT..think i am an idiot! one day u will get your retribution!



today went to M hotel to have dinner with family..so now i'm SUPER FULL!!!!!!!! FULL to MAX!!!!

the show was funny..in a nut shell..it is about this editor(sandra bullock) because her dunno wad expire already and she gotta be deported back to her country which was in canada..thus she forced her assistant Ryan Reynolds..at the begining he hated her..but later..the story turns when she goes back with him to his home town for his grandma's 90th bdae..and later..instead of a fake wedding..it turns out tat he really fall for her..some funny parts..was not bad the show..mayb i'll rate it 7 out 10.

and u know wad..serene parents bought her a BMW to drive!! $140000!!! OMG! she is like 19 years old nia..den gt BMW to drive liao..i tink i can't afford tat car for my entire life sia! rich sia..jealous..but nvm..be happy with wad u gt ger!

went to work in the morning..after work went to his hse to meet him then go to selegie road there to get his bikecoz ytd he go work..after work was raining heavily..so he took a cab back..anyway..went there also wanted to see the 4d roll out..but was late..so din make it..onli can listen frm outside...after tat..went to meet zhenling ariana and peifen eat at 302..chat a while..was talking about how good ham is treating ruishan..2 years le..they are still as sweet..ham will help her and take care of her and he enjoys looking at her and allows her to speak to guys and stuff...come to think of it..veg also mah..i tink veg is as good! wahahaha!!! after almost 7 years of seeing each other almost everyday..he still treat me very good..still willing to fetch me..still will cook for me and give me lots of freedom..that is the best!! the only bad thing about him is..gt no $$$ and really hope he will do well in his study lo..=x..now i'm at his hse..waiting for him to come back..cozhe go school..gt unit test..waiting for hm to have lunch together de..but i was tooo hungry..so i ate alittle 1st..den laterwen he come back then eat again..kekeke...bleah!



wow...ytd met up with my pri school mates-soek ee, peishan, jacinta and jiaxing...damm long nv see them..since primary 6 bah!
how we come together is..the other day, i was waiting for bus and i coincidentally met jiaxing..and we xchanged numbers..then nite before, she msg me jio me have supper ytd..so we met up at bukit timah...n talk bout last time..big ballooon..the game tat was not passed down! wad a waste! itz a CHIJ bukit timah traditional game! talk about other friends too! cool..n played arm wrestling..lame la..next time jio them come my hse play..haha..im so happy to meet up with them again!



i'm letting go my bike..today a very shuag kuai buyer came and view my bike..and he deal on the spot! OMG! now..tat the bike is sold..i kinda bu she de le..i dun wanna sell le!!! i wanna keep her..=x..but cannot liddit..=x..i'm selling at slightly above market price already..so..better let go before next time cannot sell at tat price le..=x..but..i will really miss my bike..juz now i look at my bike..i wanna cry le..=x..though hand over is next month..but..=x..thought of her parting..haiz..i dunno wad to say le..=x..i will miss you..my red x1r..my 1st bike..who had never gave me any prob before! you will always be the best bike i had!



yeah! today is our ward 58 isolation bbq party!!!

hmm..was running a fever since yesterday..so today went to sgh early to go to the staff clinic..after visiting the doctor, i met sumi, vino deb n the others at the sgh busstop and we waited for the others before heading to east coast park.

some things cockup..but later the nite was ok..enjoy talking to them and having fun..

then i went to look for the toilet coz i needa wash my hands..while walking out..guess who i met!! dear came!!! he actually trick me sae he go zzz le..but actually he wanna come n surprise me! n it is so coincident..i went out to wash hand n met him at the carpark! so sweet of him! the previous day he already gt not enuff sleep le he still come..but tat is becoz he din meet me for 8 days le coz i was in kota kinAbalu..

anyway, we all celebrated seetha's birthday and elmya's farewell..really wish elmya all the best for her future..mayb next time i might join her in canada??? haha..then fetch siyu, guan yun, amy n deb back before heading home to zzz!!!

sweet sweet n happy!!!

but i'm sorry vino and sumi..for not staying..=x..FORGIVE ME PLEASE!!!



i'm back from kota kinabalu!!!
been there from 9-16 aug 2009.
photos will be uploaded in facebook..do check it out soon yeah?

it was quite an adventure trip..lemme juz do a summary itenary of wad i did there.

Day 1: took tiger airways there( bout $100 return per person.got it at a discounted rate) =>..then took a cab(RM 30) to gaya street as the closes at 1pm..and it was goin to be 1 pm already by the time we landed..walk around for a while before we settled at a kopitiam for our lunch..had beef noodle and laksa...not bad..then headed to out lavender lodge where we had booked our accomodation online earlier on..(RM70/nite)..it's a twin beded room with common bathroom...very clean..slack there for a while before heading out for a walk..had dinner..movie n back..

DAY 2: water rafting at pedas river..(RM 210)..was not bad..but we din capsize..=x..water was kinda dirty..but still it was quite fun..

Day 3: headed to mt kk base..n walk around the park there..weather was very cooling..like in genting..

Day 4: climb up to laban rata

Day 5 from laban rata to the summit of mt kk..started climb at 2.30am..managed to catch the sunrise at 5.30am! then climb down..and back to the city..i was sick..vomited twice..=x..

Day 6: whole body aching..went diving..3 in total..1 was refresher..the 2 other was boat dives..saw turtle!!! yeah!!! and many other sea creatures..check out the pictures! the corals are quite beautiful..many different species...

Day 7: diving too...another 3 boat dives..saw giant squid..fire fish..shrimps..=P

Day 8: flight back to singapore



i have been making alot of noise saying..y ppl n their bf can go overseas for their 1 year aniversary..somemore is theBF pay all the expenses..y me..6..coming to 7 fucking long years..yet the furthest i gone with him was KL n Genting!

guess wad he told me..coz he is a student..no $$$..ppl BF gt work full time..he only work on some weekends evening only..where to get the $$$...=x...then he sae..even he gt extra spare cash..he wanna save to down for his class 2 bike...FUCK U LA! go marry your bike la..i am noting! lose to a 2 wheeler...! shit la..wadz the point! FUCK YOU! i HATE YOU!