watching many ppl get married..sometimes really make me feel very envious..
alot of ppl ask me..when am i getting married..all i could sae is..not anytime soon..=x..
basically..i am a practical person..u gt no $..no need to tink of marriage..tat is top of my list..but then again..i dun marry becoz tat person is loaded or wad..juz tat..at least the base muz be well supported mah..otherwise..very easily it will collapse mah..

i'm with him for 6 plus..coming to 7 years this x'mas..yes..i totally agree tat it is time to talk bout marriage at this stage le..but..gt no $$$..=x..he still studying..haven complete his NS..how liddit..=x..n sumtimes..somethings worries me..i very scared tat our interest clashes and we will divorce if we get married..=x..

i like to travel and see things..he thinks that itz a waste of money..he will spend on luxury things like he will rather get a nicer car or bike with tat extra cash..but..of coz..because i like to travel..n if he gt the cash..he will give in to me and accompany me go travel..but now he will..will he give in to me in future???

i tink of alot of things..which makes me have alot of fears..n thus..i tink tat i will not lead my life to the fullest..i fear tat i am unable to handle and teach my children well in future..thus i have decided not to have children..another reason y i dun wan to have kids is coz..i gt this fear that wad if i groom my kid to a certain age already and he/she die before me? i cannot take tat..=x..i told u i tink alot le..=x..mayb sometimes i should juz stop tinking n juz do..to lead life to the fullest..and to experience every single little tings????


sometimes i really love him to the max n wanna marry him right away..sometimes i tink the otherwise when we meet with disagreements..=x..i dunno..i still gt a long way to go..so..i no need to tink so much now!

thus..

I AM GOING TO SLEEP NOW! TMR GOTTA WAKE UP EARLY TO WORK LEH!